some years back,
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Posted:Nov 6, 2024 1:22 pm
Last Updated:Nov 8, 2024 9:46 am 14433 Views
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I met this man, he was very, very full of himself
About 'BEING' dominant.....
I never felt it, with him.
To me, he was always very nervous and all over the place, no controle, what so ever....
over any part of his life, and or eating pattern....
In the years i lost contact with this person, and i was very fine, with that,
he was totally unreliablle to me.
Stay away!! from him.
He was all talk, about bdsm, the game, the play, very into himself!
The other day, i saw him again.....
I looked him straigth in the eye and said; hello... ( just bein nice, acknowledge him, as a human being)
He got totally panicky, did not know where to look and walked on.
I was flabbergasted and wanted to laugh out loud.
Whát the heck!?
So, he too, showed his true colours.... amp;  
I am glad my instinct prevented me, from getting involved with him.
Just an other totally fucked up vanilla, who does not know, or understand shit about the emotional part of the whole D/s connection.
afraid of mé.......!?
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Condolence,
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Posted:Nov 6, 2024 12:56 pm
Last Updated:Nov 6, 2024 1:28 pm 10603 Views
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To all the people, with half a working brain....
For the results of this "election",
There is not much left, that will safe you.... or our planet, i am afraid.......
This, ofcourse, is just my oppinion
Not "the true" - although i think - the true - ? has left the building in this case.
Good luck to all of us,
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A treat!
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Posted:Oct 31, 2024 2:11 am
Last Updated:Nov 6, 2024 12:51 pm 13321 Views
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I was at a birthday party of this friend of mine,
it was nice, talked with some very nice folks.
Then, all of a sudden, she asks if i want to go dancing?
SUre!! i Would love to!
So, we are planning to go to a dancing event,
It starts in the afternoon!!! huh>?
Anyway, looking forward to that!
An other up coming event, is a High Tea Party,
because i am the caregiver to my sister.
it is a way of the local government to say; thank you for all your hard work!
it is at my sisters village, in a very nice restaurant, in the mids of a great forest.
And although i dont eat wheat, dairy or egg, or .... some others stuff,
i will go there, take my own goodies with me, as i am use to do, everywhere i go.
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He asked about it!
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Posted:Oct 29, 2024 11:00 am
Last Updated:Dec 8, 2024 6:38 am 13305 Views
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It was sooo funny, this man, who is taking care of my Cato Cabrio/ Karel, and more nonsense names, i use...
Wanted to talk about the situation with Russia and Korea, It is a mess, ofcourse.
He wanted to know my oppinion....
I felt trapped... some way, somehow...
So, i said; Yeah, well, it are mén, who are creating/ making war?
killing all and everything?
so what do you expect from me?
As an answer?
He did not know, how to react.
So, i asked him, do you really want to know, hear what i have to say, about all that?
Yeah, yeah, he wanted to know....
Oh boy! was he in for a shock!! LOL
Poor man.
So, i told him, that guy in Isreal, that madman in the Us, all those old geezers in those Eastern/Central Azie? That psychopate in Russia?
That very dangerous man, in government in Holland?
They should have been castrated, by the age of 17, or about their first wet dream.
THAT would end a lot of missery, all that women abuse, all the **** youknowwhat****\
Thát all will not take place, if those geezers are castrated.
Alright, we need some guys left to help build houses, bridges,
produce .
The mayority of men, can easily be castrated,
We are already with way too many people on this planet.
So... a very ackward silence was his reaction, he stood up, walked around
told me, i was scary. 
I told him, You wanted to know my view on this?
look at it, in rational way
You knów this is the solution,
This will end a hell of a lot of problems, in the world, all over the planet.
If the situation was the other way around, men would already have been taken care of this problem, the same way...
But, oh, boy, oh boy, dont talk or touch the ôl holy reproduction system of men!
The holy penis!!!
Men, doctors have been using exactly this same "solution" on women in India, to
put an end to the overproduction of offspring.
Misguiding those women and their husbands, to come to healthcentre to get a shot, i believe it was against mumps? German Measles? ,
and get a radio for free, on batteries, (ofcourse) so when the batteries were dead, they did not have any use of that radio, anymore...
Those women where told, to get that shot, they needed to have full anesthesia.
While those women were under, they sterilized those women.
WIthout their consent, without them knowing what was happening
Only after some years after that socalled shot, they found out, they could no longer get pregnant.
And in that old system in the country side, in India, those were needed to help work on the land... ( like here to, a long time ago)
Almost no one knows this! It is all kept secret and silent.
But, OOOH, OOH, dont you dare to suggest this, as an easy solution to a world wide problem, with crazy mad men destroying OUR planet... for years and years now....
Be aware of the holy penis! LMAOFF, ROFL, LOL
Bow to the HOLY PENIS HOLDERS!
Dont ask, if you cant handle the answer.... / solution.... 
Mé? radical? extreme?
This situation asks for extreem solutions, if we want to safe OUR MOTHER PLANET.
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My bike!
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Posted:Oct 21, 2024 12:25 pm
Last Updated:Oct 23, 2024 6:14 am 15180 Views
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I am soo happy, getting my bike more and more ready,
for the big adventure!
I have finally found a real great sadle, have found a real good bicycle shop,
who are trustworty and good.
They are ordering the right tools for me,
They understand, i only need the bare minimun of tools
spare tire, etc.
They dont fuck me over, with trying to sell me, all kind of tools, i dont need,
As that other shop tried.....
I need some more chains and padlocks for on the way.
They offered me, to check my bike, before i go, so everything will be safe, as safe can be.
I am preparing the bike bags now,
how much food, how much clothes, how much tools?
Can i store in those bags?
enjoying myself tremendously!
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People picker?
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Posted:Oct 21, 2024 11:54 am
Last Updated:Dec 8, 2024 5:56 am 13412 Views
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As they say on FET when things keep going wrong with the male partst of those sites,
Your people picker is broken.
And, i believe mine is broken indeed.
Because, you/i , who ever, can keep blaming those guys that they dont match
Are rude, r~Ape~ 8888 ists.. or what ever disqualification you want to give them.
The thing is, they react onto something that is in your vibe.
At least, that is what i believe by now.
Sure, most guys on here, are dangerous, psychos, narcist, and you name it
cheating on their wifes.. and what not.
BUT
Why do they find your profile, text, pictures soo "interesting" that they seak contact?
There must be something there.....
I also believe this is almost subconscious, from both those men and the women,'
They seem to find "attractive" in some way or order...
Mind you!
There is no blame here!
it is something i have been thinking, analyzing for some time
and also researching my own background
You can say, i did not come from a stable, harmonious family life,
So i dont have that kind of example, i have very bad example.
So it is almost "natural" that my people picker is broken
with that kind of background..
and even now, the guys i sometimes find attractive, are not the kind of guys you want your or , come home with...
So, i can keep on blaming those guys and there are a lot of rotten apples on here
Bé AWARE!
Be very, very carefull!
When you/i, who ever, dont see, their part in all this, this will repeat itselfs till kingdoms comes....
Soo?
what to do?
Be aware of this, is the first step,
analyze your own behaviour toward the type of men, you find attractive,
is an other one.
Break the cycle!! Is an other one!!
My advise to me;?
Keep away from guys, for now
Untill you have this sorted out.
Be, constantly aware of your own reaction toward a certain type of men... man...
Hold yourself back.
An other thing, i have found, is why do some married men, are so Hot on me?
What are my signs??
what, where is my inner power/love?
And, when i just talk with them and "see" their game?
They inmediately lose interest...
Strange? isnt it? 
Am i sooo desperately?
Wanting A guy?
ANY KIND OF GUY?
as long as he is breathing, have a pulse?
Is it only about getting some sort of "attention"?
does not matter what kind of "attention"?
Not.
Vanillas dont do it for me.
There is nothing i find attractive in vanilla men, at all
So?
what is it?
I have nothing in common with vanilla men, relation wise of sexuality wise.
What do i, subconscious, send out?
Damn!
peope picker??
bleagh!!
Looking for something totally else, in a person, characterwise, power wise, inner strenght wise... inner compass?
Leading, guidance.
What do i have to offer such a person?
Is what i have to offer, what he needs/wants?
Is it enough?
Are he and i compatible, on the important items, relationwise? M/s wise?
So, the person(s) with the most deep intelligent, psychological insight, wisdom,
may answer this rambling!
Watch out for your own people picker, he/she/ it might be broken,
that is why, i think, you/i/ who ever, attracks those morrons
Because there are very good, emotional stable, fully grown up, fun guys on here,
so why dont they write to you/me/ who ever??
ask yourself that.
or not!
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Happy home, again!
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Posted:Oct 17, 2024 12:51 pm
Last Updated:Oct 21, 2024 11:24 am 14464 Views
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For more then 14 days!
it is party time!
But not really.
I have to do a lot of work in my garden, to prepare it.
And i am deadly tired... so not much action, as of yet.....
Who knows?
Maybe the weekend i will be getting the spirit and get at it!
The cat is happy too, that i am back again, i am allowed to touch him,
Yeah, makes me happy.
Not much news on the SM -DS part, ofcourse....
Still preparing for my leaving this country.
I already got a friend offering a lift to go all the way to Spain,
In his truck.
Me and my bike.
And, although i really, really appreciate his offer,
I wont be doing this trip on my own, then... anymore.....
It would be nice and great company and good conversations...
BUT.....
It is an offer i dont have to take, or can take it just half way the big tour?!
Politics are getting scarier and scarier in this country
WIth his New PM, he is really something...
If you look into his eyes, there is nothing there!
Just very dark empty space.... No soul.
He likes to rule and divide, put people up against each other..
create fear in the government....
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Dating? And deep fake porn?
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Posted:Oct 12, 2024 10:06 am
Last Updated:Dec 8, 2024 7:31 am 16349 Views
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Yeah,
The "boys" have been bussy.
Online dating has become a real danger.
If that was not already the case.
I did read about it,
Dating and asking for pictures
Just innocent hollyday picture, beach pictures, all very decent.
BOEM, and before you know it, "they? Try to blackmail you with a video, in wich you are masturbating, all very real, your face on it, and all.
Aint that nice....?
I was always very reluctant to sent pictures.
Never liked it much...
I prefer the real meaning of A Bind Date.
To some i did send a picture, not really very clear, close_up..
It is about the overall picture, isnit?
So, dating?
I dont have the time for it now.
Going on my bike tour, who needs a boring guy? With just one active braincell, and that is NOT situated in the head on his neck...LOL 
And i must say, i am not that much interested anymore...
Most men, Or should i say; most vanilla men?
i find very boring, childish, ego centric little ...  
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4 days,
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Posted:Oct 11, 2024 12:36 pm
Last Updated:Oct 12, 2024 9:49 am 12826 Views
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I am back at my own place, for 4 days
and then duty call is on, again.
it was a bit much, the last days, to be with my sister.
When you sort of, live together for some time, sort of
i get to see, all her tics and stuck habbits.
She is not a very flexible person, as in her character.
I , am a very flexible person, by nature... to some extent ofcourse..
There is always this limit, and nó more!
The EMDR is doing its works, she still has a long way to go...
This can take years, and years! If ever...?
To heal.......
The mental abuse, of her and her .....
You just cant inmaging how horrible that must have been.
50 years!
It was in every aspect of her being, her doing, what she was "allowed" to....
It sickens me, to think about that impact
How that destroyed her, as a person, her character, her whole wellbeing.
And being me, i am as mad as can be, at this person.
Disgusting to treat your woman like that.
Horrible Mental sick fuck!
Needs to be put down!
Oh, that is not longer needed, since he is allready death!! LOL
Oops! No Oops! 
That has nothing to do with loving care.
at all
He was a despot, abuser, tiran.
"it started very slow", is what my sister told me
he took more and more....
She had no defence against it
at all.
Anyway,
i am very, very happy to be back at my own place, if only for 4 days
I need me time!
To sing with the music on my radio, to dance, to have fun.
it is all sooo terrible depressing....
Also, she is targeting the wrong item
getting angry on stuff instead of getting angry on him.
"blaming" stuff, for making her sick..
While it was his doing, that made her mentally sick and ultra dependent.
Stockholm syndrom is coming to my mind, when i see how she reacts to things
still terrible afraid to throw his things away....
To claim the house, as hers.
She is not able to make the easiest desicions,
about if we are going to have a drink, in this very nice restaurant, after our walks through the woods..
Or about, what we are going to eat, at dinner time
Asks me, just after breakfast, what 'we' are going to eat, at dinner time?
How in the hell do i know?
I just finished my breakfast!
Shakes head.....
It is also S.A.D. time again, so my tolerance level is a bit low....
to say it nicely .... bleagh...
Dont have much energy, to give....
Going to a sheep shearing// wool spinning club
See, if i finally can master that art!
It is soo ZEN, to bé in that movement, of that spinning wheel...
And sheep wool smells soo earthy.... i love it!
It is getting cold, again, we did not have any trouble with those storms, roaming over the planet, at all
Althought, the weather men and women, made a real big show about it!
Nothing much happened overhere.
(as usual)
Have a good night sleep!
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Again, hidden in country side, of holland?
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Posted:Oct 4, 2024 1:47 pm
Last Updated:Oct 11, 2024 1:05 pm 13266 Views
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At my sisters place,
Today was a heavy day, again, for her and so also for me.
We too, have a great time, joke around, laugh a lot, but it is all still so fresh, so raw...
So, sometimes i am a short while on here...
To put my mind onto something else, then her missery, and more....
It is, still great weather here, sunshine all day long.
Having a childrens birthday this weekend, will be fun!! 😄👍
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