Reset Password
Reset Link Sent
| Blogs > rosaenaluin > My Blog |
|
4 days, I am back at my own place, for 4 days and then duty call is on, again. it was a bit much, the last days, to be with my sister. When you sort of, live together for some time, sort of i get to see, all her tics and stuck habbits. She is not a very flexible person, as in her character. I , am a very flexible person, by nature... to some extent ofcourse.. There is always this limit, and nó more! The EMDR is doing its works, she still has a long way to go... This can take years, and years! If ever...? To heal....... The mental abuse, of her and her ..... You just cant inmaging how horrible that must have been. 50 years! It was in every aspect of her being, her doing, what she was "allowed" to.... It sickens me, to think about that impact How that destroyed her, as a person, her character, her whole wellbeing. And being me, i am as mad as can be, at this person. Disgusting to treat your woman like that. Horrible Mental sick fuck! Needs to be put down! Oh, that is not longer needed, since he is allready death!! LOL Oops! No Oops!  That has nothing to do with loving care. at all He was a despot, abuser, tiran. "it started very slow", is what my sister told me he took more and more.... She had no defence against it at all. Anyway, i am very, very happy to be back at my own place, if only for 4 days I need me time! To sing with the music on my radio, to dance, to have fun. it is all sooo terrible depressing.... Also, she is targeting the wrong item getting angry on stuff instead of getting angry on him. "blaming" stuff, for making her sick.. While it was his doing, that made her mentally sick and ultra dependent. Stockholm syndrom is coming to my mind, when i see how she reacts to things still terrible afraid to throw his things away.... To claim the house, as hers. She is not able to make the easiest desicions, about if we are going to have a drink, in this very nice restaurant, after our walks through the woods.. Or about, what we are going to eat, at dinner time Asks me, just after breakfast, what 'we' are going to eat, at dinner time? How in the hell do i know? I just finished my breakfast!  Shakes head..... It is also S.A.D. time again, so my tolerance level is a bit low.... to say it nicely .... bleagh... Dont have much energy, to give.... Going to a sheep shearing// wool spinning club See, if i finally can master that art! It is soo ZEN, to bé in that movement, of that spinning wheel... And sheep wool smells soo earthy.... i love it! It is getting cold, again, we did not have any trouble with those storms, roaming over the planet, at all Althought, the weather men and women, made a real big show about it! Nothing much happened overhere. (as usual) Have a good night sleep! |
|||
|
I do read blogs, while at her place, late in the evening Most of the time, too tired to bother to write anything... Loving caring cuddles to those who needs or wants them. Behave and be a good person!  kindness does not cost anything.
| ||
|
That's terrible what your sister had too go thru. My mom told me a couple years after my dad passed. She said I loved your father, but I do not miss him. She lived another 27 years after he passed away. I hope and pray your sister can heal from this and live a better life.
| ||
|
Its terrible what happened to your sister, But do not fell you have to prop her up so much, she needs to learn how to cope, don't be her crutch to keep going as she is. You need to maintain your life, don't get dragged down. Best to the both of you. "One Big Sky Covers Us All Equally"
| ||
|
DD, Thank you, It is amazing, not, to see how she acts.... still in the grip of his terror. Being of a totall other character, i would have fight him, in every way or step, or just would have taken the kids and walk out of him. OR, rather, never married that creep,because i saw his darkness, very early on, in their courting days. Comes what comes. To safe my sanity.
| ||
|
Bikerforslut, Thank you, I hope so, too. Letting her see, how i live, on my own, making healthy life choices... Enjoy, being alone, but not lonely.... Being happy. Most of the time.... 🙏
| ||
|
Loving and caring cuddles and hugs to you, dear Rosa. You see things so clearly. I really have nothing to add, and I shared my opinion in your previous blog. It is all very sad to spend a life like that, and when finally being set free, you don't know anymore what and how to live with it. Please take care of yourself, too, Rosa. Four days will pass quickly, so do whatever brings you peace and relaxation. Much love to you! 
| ||
|
Why not suggest she come visit you? Get her away from her old norm. It is hard to change when still surrounded by so much of the "old ways" You are a good sister!
| ||
|
Rosa enjoy the freedom of peace quiet & garden! lol
| ||
|
likeithot, That is a good idea, i did suggest that, she just wont, she wont be able to be here, for a day, since my "rules" differ sooo much from hers, she would go crazy here. Too much go with the flow....😊😇 And, this is my peacefull place, to unwind, get my rest.... I have to protect that. To stay mildly sane😘😉, in all this... Also, she needs a lot, and i mean; a hell of a lot of EMDR, to become, to find herself,if ever....
| ||
|
😊🤗bdsmDd, You get it! 😃👍💪🙏😘 I sure will do that.
| ||
|
Ex, Yes, your reaction was spot on! Thank you,for that. 💋🙏 4 days are gone in an eye blink... Not enough ME time.... that was due to the whole situation, with all kind of family events, birthdays and such.. I stayed 7😵💫😵🥴 days, That was way too much. Wont do that again! In the end, things will work out, alright.... patience. 💞💟
|
 |
 |
 |
| Become a member to comment on this blog | ||
 |
×
×
