Hair,
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Posted:Jun 4, 2024 7:05 am
Last Updated:Jun 6, 2024 5:00 am 6936 Views
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Ever since i had corona, i am losing hair, in abundance.....
Not daily, but once in a while the hair loss is incredible!!
And, now this is going on, for some time now.
I am not happy, about it, at all!
Soo much hair, everywhere!!
So, i am seriously thinking of shaving my head bald
Há.
Did that before, no worries!
You must know, that i LOVE my hair, my curls, i really do!
But, this is no fun, anymore!!
I think my sister will be freaked out, when she sees me...
and the rest of the family will be in shock.
Why did you do thát!!
Your hair!!
The most proud possession ,a woman can have,
jadajada jadajada....
Really seriously thinking about it!!
When i do it, i have to wear a bonnet all day long,
because it is still way tooo cold, overhere.....
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Pain? Or, Pain!
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Posted:Jun 3, 2024 11:11 am
Last Updated:Jun 6, 2024 1:39 pm 8354 Views
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Or, Just for the fun, of it......?
Pain,
Oh, how do i love the pain.
Not any kind of pain... be assured,
But,
The intens build-up,"pain", from a intens whip session...
Oh, yeah, bring it on! Please!
I dont experience those sensations as pain..
To me, it is the purest form of love from a Master, ( or dominant)
for his submissive/ slave...
Ooh, Yeah... 
Dont stop until i get, have enough...
Be a shaken, crying happy person.....
An other kind of pain, i welcome very much, too
is the muscle pain, from working real hard in my garden...
After pruning some shrubs, rather tall and gone out of controle,
I alway, inmediately get muscle pain,
the same evening even.
I love those bodily sensations.
Being a masochiste, pain has an totall other value for me.
I am not afraid of pain, for me, it is just part of living... sometimes....
In the bdsm world,
The word PAIN has a totall other value.
That is why, people who are knowledgeable about this,
Prefere to talk about intense bodily sensations.
And i love that way of talking.
In the outside world, pain is something negative.
A warning system... to avoid.
As a masochiste,.... pain, the good kind of pain,
My kind of pain,
is to me, the purest love a Dominant/ Master can show, give to his submissive/ slave,
masochiste.
He gets the deepest form of devotion back for it.
Because i love him, adore him, for he is the only one able
to understands my needs and wants
And they coinside with his...
We both get fulfilled.....
In more then one way....
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
Now, i have muscle pain from carrying stuff to the dump waste area.
It was a lot!!
We worked real hard, and were gone, again, within one hour!
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Write!
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Posted:May 31, 2024 11:46 pm
Last Updated:Jun 2, 2024 1:30 am 7377 Views
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I want to write,
Have some things to say, tell... share...
But!
I am soo very terrible busy!!
I will get to it, later....
Maybe even today?!
Cleaning out my house has first priority!
And when i get help, offered?
I need, want to accept it! Too!!
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It is now, official!!
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Posted:May 29, 2024 11:17 am
Last Updated:Jul 28, 2024 5:18 pm 9339 Views
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May is the wettest month.so far!!
All day, every day rain
It rained soo much, the farmers cant get their vegies in the ground, or out of it.
Because the roots rot away...sooo wet
No tractor can get on the land...
The machines are way too heavy, the soil is sooo wet!!
This is, at least, the third year, we have a wet season.
Mansoon...
Almost no sunshine,
Or, we have some sunshine, but the winds are so terrible cold, it is no fun, to go out and about.
And, soon, i have to go, again, training, and do some more serieus shopping,
To get my stuff ready....
Online buying is good, but seeing, touching the products is also important.
Try it on, too
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Fire in the house?
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Posted:May 28, 2024 11:30 pm
Last Updated:May 29, 2024 11:08 am 8690 Views
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I wanted to show my new cooking tool, for on the way...
Had a nice picture.....
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My sister,
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Posted:May 21, 2024 10:52 am
Last Updated:May 22, 2024 6:43 am 13248 Views
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Is actually doing pretty good.
Although she still does not sleep much...
Their marriage was a marriage of keeping secrets...
To keep up.... having "a good" 🤢🤮🤢 marriage.
Well... it was "A Good Marriage"..... for him, and him only!!
Their two suffer under this, very much.
Being bullied, to make themselfs less and less...
Lack a good, healthy selfimage.
No convidence, in being a good person, with the right to take in space.
The right to BE A PERSON.
Horrible.
They both bring that, into their own relation.so, subconscious,
They "look" for a person, who mirrors that behaviour of their " daddy".....
Having troublesome relations in wich they are not being appreciated, (enough?)
But being made small, and feelings of being stupid
They having little ones, too.
Give this trauma on, to their ...
And on, and on, and on.
Passing on trauma in a family.
Gosh....
What a damage!
My sister is not yet ready to throw all his shit out, maybe she is even "afraid" to touch his clothes...?!
!All his bad energy is still in that house!
Next month i am going to her place again.
I needed the ME! Time.
Her character is very different tgen mine, ofcourse.
She just gives, and gives, and gives
Never demanded anything for her own...
Dont take in any room, pace....
So, a vacuum does not excist,
He took, and took and took... up all, of her.
And now, she is at a loss...
I give her exercises, to feel good, get some energy going,
Qi Gong.
And Chanting,
It is up to her.
I tell you; Stockholm syndrome.
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Spring?
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Posted:May 21, 2024 10:27 am
Last Updated:Jul 28, 2024 2:11 pm 12798 Views
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Or... not so much....
We are getting a lot of rain, in between some sunshine..
Due to the moisture... it is really nasty weather.
Your clothes stick to your body, have difficulty breathing...
Spring?
Bleagh.
This, i believe, is the 3 or 4 spring, that is just a wet season, with some sunshine, now and then.
There is more daylight!
That is for sure.
But, no consistancy, at all
For those who like to change their clothing, during the day?
Tihis is ideal weather for them.
You dont know what to wear,
In the morning you actually need your winterclothes on, again..
So, around 11, you can put on something light,
After 15 hour, something.,
You can put your autumn clothes again...
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Being a woman? Or?
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Posted:May 16, 2024 10:47 am
Last Updated:Aug 9, 2024 4:17 am 15116 Views
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Just being mé?
I am looking for traveling tents, lighweight and all that...
Most of the tents they show on sites, i find terrible ugly.
I mean; you dont go sleeping in a Yellow tent?
Or bright red?
Do you??
I want a tent with some extra space to put stuff, like my bike bags...
have some extra room....
Hard to find!
With just a small canopy, so i can sit in the shade, in front of my tent, when it is lovely hot, where i am going...
I also want a tent with a front and a back door, because where i am going, it is most probably going to get hot!!
Some airing is nice, in that case?!
Dont you think?
It is almost impossible to find such a tent.
I want the tent to look nice!
is that too strange? 
Ofcourse i take a 2 persons tent, for the extra space....
Because i am going to be on the road for a long time, i want a tent
where i can relax in and around.
Not just only sleep in....
I have to cook too....
Choices, choices
I have an other challenge, with the cooking devices...
What and how?
I LOVE to cook on wood, make a real living fire...
In South Europe, you are not allowed to cook on open fire, in the hottest months..,
because of creating a whole forest to go up in fire...
When the sparks of your fire, go underground and go on burning..
You can burn a whole forest area.... miles away from where you was... at first...
Freaking dangerous!!
So..... that is an other challenge!
What, how and why?
I want the things i have to buy and use, to look somehow pretty.
To enjoy them.
I bought some really very fancy nice plates, cups and cutlery
The brand is; KUPILKA,
It is from Finland
Check it out, if you are curious...
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shaving times?
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Posted:May 15, 2024 9:43 am
Last Updated:May 17, 2024 12:31 pm 13741 Views
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Ssst,
Just say it in a very quiet voice....
Ssstttt....
It seems like this thing in the sky, is giving off some warmth...?
like sunshine???
ooh! Ooh!!
sssstttt
dont say it out loud!!
or the weathergods decide to cut it, again...
So, the shaving times are here again....
So soft, so smooth, i love my legs when shaved!
Just dont like the ritual of shaving, at all...
Wet, dry, does not matter, i just dont like to do it.
so much work!!
I always miss parts...... 
even though i make in my mind shaving patterns on my legs, i always seem to miss parts....
strange, dont you think?
I always wish........ Sssttt.....
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Fake?
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Posted:May 13, 2024 5:47 am
Last Updated:May 13, 2024 1:13 pm 15415 Views
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Again?
In an conversation, it became cristal clear that his ideas of a d/s did not matched mine.
No problem, just a natural aspect of getting to now each other and each others wants and needs.
No drama.
At least, not for me.
This is more common, then not, when in conversations with men, on here...
alright, no hard feelings, i wish you luck and all that.
Well, he began calling me a fake.
I think, that says more of his (lack) of understanding of the core of bdsm and relationstyle, then anything else.
still no hard feelings.
I knów i am not A fake,
athough he might think so...?
He just wanted something totally different from the whole scale of BDSM then i did...
He, too, is not a fake, either.
He was just a bedroom dominant.
Not much human interaction, interest, only as far as the body form went...
Sorry, i cant do that.
I NEED that emotional attachment, connection, before i even consider getting naked.
Or talk intimate desires...
Trust?
Where is the trust?
In such fast, only oriented on the bodily, satisfaction? actions?
I think, am going to make a button, to put on my jacket, with FAKE on it.
Or maybe, let it be tatoed on my forehead! LOL
in mirrored writings~! EKAF 
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