Hi everyone ... for those with reason to celebrate V-day I hope it was a good one ... I of course had no reason so I spent it indulging in my ebook boyfriends lol
I finally have the permanent crown which seemed to take forever lol The latest vascular surgery on the bad vein in right leg seems to have totally healed so now I need to buckle down and get my lazy butt to the Y lol remember, I'm the queen of procrastinating lol
Two things want to blog about ... firstly I have been considering the idea of maybe casual dating? what is the difference between casual dating and nsa dating? what is the overall understanding as to what these two descriptions concerning dating actually mean ... I'm interested in hearing from everyone as to what their idea or understanding of these mean ... what the expectations are relating to the various dating choices given ... as before, the term FWB can have various meanings to other individuals - all differing ...
I am considering posting the following in my dating profile intro ? section ... would appreciate any advice or suggestions concerning what I planned so far on posting ... lol warning - it's like a novel lol and am sure is TMI but that is the norm for me if you follow my blog (remember I had a previous one got locked out of and thus started this one (old was WidLavAFF2X's where I basically posted the following and was considering using in the dating profile ?intro section ... so here it is
I got to thinking after my first post and decided to try to give everyone a sense of who I am, etc. Share some of my history, experiences have had through the years ....
I've been married twice ... have 3 sons (26, 38, 40) ... ended 1st marriage twice due to physical/emotional abuse ... there is a story there - it was the darkest time in my life for many reasons ... all I can say is shit happens, whether deserve it or not, bad things happen to good people etc. lol
10 years later met 2nd husband (on a phone date line of all things lol), I was going to school for associates degree Legal Business Admin
He was a great guy, treated me like his queen, had an awesome sense of humor and constantly had me laughing/smiling, a great hugger, kisser, best sex partner ever ... I told him I'd never get married unless had to lol so he made it his mission to knock me up and make me a wife and mom again lol had alot of fun then lol we had a son together ... unfortunately few years later I discovered he had oxy and ambien? addiction which I was ignorant about at first , he Overdosed and nearly died 3 times and things got worse when started self medicating with Vodka (mean drunk), relationship started falling apart when I realized he had these issues and stopped enabling him and tried to help him ... sometimes a person just can't overcome their demons ... moved back to Pgh area, then ended up back in Johnstown since was best thing for my son ...so I came back and got a place down road from our house so he could spend however much time wanted with his dad but had a safe place to come home to with me ... again long story there lol
I became a widow Jan 2010, was separated not divorced ... my son was in 8th grade so was I think 13 going on 14 years old ... moved back into the house, managed somehow to keep house and car and son in his school (private catholic school) until he was off to college ... at some point house started needing alot of repairs, car didn't pass inspection, struggling money wise ... so had to abandon my house and move into income based/public housing to avoid being homeless ... not so bad overall ... could be worse lol
I bused for alot of years to get around, went to Pgh to spend time once a year with mom and brother via Greyhound ... I've worked pretty much all my life except for short periods ... had several different types of jobs, mostly clerical but last job worked part-time for cleaning company - wasn't too bad - only had to collect the trash - no cleaning toilets, mopping floors etc. easiest job there ... I was truly blessed a few years ago when a friend of the family gifted me a car when they bought a new one ... didn't see that one coming lol
I had my youngest son when I was 39 ... developed gestational diabetes which of course turned into type 2 ... otherwise no health issues...
till last few years ... arthritis has caused bone on bone issues - had to have knee replacement (left leg) ... and the last to happen is found a superficial blood clot in/on varicous viein right leg - whoopie lol ... oh well, things could be worse right? I'll count my blessings
I"m sure this is way TMI ... all I can say to that is oh well, is what it is, deal with it lol
I was on AFF exploring when in my early ?50's ... I'll likely end up sharing that experience ... just have to say the site was nothing like is now - women didn't have to pay and had full access back then - they needed to attract the men from what I heard ... that was a time when I decided being one of the "good girls" hadn't paid off so decided was time to let my naughty side/twin out to play lol in the end the whole experience wasn't what I had expected, big let down ... but I did put myself out there somewhat ... was a learning experience so not sorry I did it ...
Now I'm looking for something different ... not interested in meaningless/casual sex encounters - been there done that - just not my cup of tea ... not saying I'm not interested in sex or exploring or tying new things and such ... doing those things with someone special/a partner in crime, best friend this time that would evolve into an actual intimate relationship ... I want to proceed slowly, taking baby steps, casually date, find someone who would be a great friend to get out and do things with like maybe go hiking, work out together, enjoy various activities together (outside sex lol) ... just good friends, taking time to get to know each other, if meet right guy could be something more like an actual relationship maybe ... LOL likely I am seeking the unobtainable but have to try ...
Well bored you all enough ... thanks for putting up with me ... xo debi
As I stated I would welcome comments, suggestions etc. (hopefully you will all be constructive with any negative thoughts comments etc. even though I am thick skinned person far as that goes lol ...
I can't thank anyone who actually had the time and/or patience to actually read this post all the way through ... xo debi
I apologize if have duplicated anything posted - it's almost impossible now to recall if did or did not post something ...
take care everyone ... play nice and try not to hurt others ... xo... hope to hear from those who feel like commenting ... xo debi
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